The Mistake

Hye...
I am writing this blog not for the sake of sympathy but just to confess myself ki maine galti ki hai..
(Mistakes I did during my NEET preparation)
To Kahani shuru hoti hai, 11th mei PCB lekar doctor banne ke sapne ko pura karne ke liye but pehle entrance to clear karna tha
Paper was not tough but I made blunder a hell lot of blunders in chemistry and Biology, I don't know what to do next because I never had "Plan B" in my mind. So, It all started after passing 10th. My father asked me to take medical and become a doctor after doing a hell of a lot research, I enrolled myself in Aakash Institute. Everything was going well, I was in regular classroom course, performing well. 
but....
wo kehte hain na, "Kabhi Kabhi Bhagwan se bhi humari kushi dekhi nhi Jati." 
Hmm.....(THE COVID, THE LOCKDOWN, THE DISTRACTIONS...... Rukooo.                                  I should not blame the situation. “It's easy to blame others for your situation. It's much more productive to search your own past and find what caused your faults.” Itna motivation kafi tha khud ki mistake rectify karne ke liye 

Now the black magic begins.........

Mistakes I committed during my preparation : 

1. Spending a hell of a lot time on youtube for "Short lived" motivation. Now I realize that instead of running for extrinsic source motivation, one must tap her intrinsic source of motivation which is smouldering within.

Mera sabun slow tha. (memers will get this, free ki lifebuoy promotion.)

2. Fretting about a schoolmates who appeared to be enjoying their life. They weren't actually It was me, who was grinding myself for enjoyable life later.

 Reel life V/s real life. Keep hustling. Apna time bhi aayega.

3.Getting into a toxic relationship. Iski zikr kabhi or hogi. An idle mind is a devil's workshop.

4. Ignoring my health. It's an exam determining factor, don't take it lightly. It costed me heavily. It's not my school or a job. We are not allowed to take a sick leave in NEET, If we fall sick, it's our mistake "Time & Tide wait for none"

5. Having a false Notion.

6 Months are left, 10 weeks in hand, getting less marks, 400 aa rhe hai nhi hoga. 

Just stop thinking. START DOING. Why consider defeat even before the fight- @Eashan Aneja sir

6. Piling hell of a lot books. 

I was not guided properly during the interphase, sometimes we just need someone who can show us the right path.

7. Lack of Practice. 

I have to admit this but I didn't even practice 1000 question seriously during those 2 long yrs. 

Waqt rehte sudhar jao. Why to cry on spilled milk? Rona aata hai mere bhai, bahot aata hai. 

8- OVER THINKING

Getting inspired or influenced by a hell lot of people doesn't make you cool. You have to acccept this that you're a fucking fool who get inspired by everyone and everything. It cost your health. Ab or kitna Khud ko barbad Karoge. DON'T GET JEALOUS.

9. Spending quality time with family. 

Other thing, may change us, but we start and end with family. I forget this, I confined myself within the four walls. I stop sharing things with parents that ruined me and my condition become worst. Now I can' I write on this. Thank you Maa Papa for believing me. THIS SHALL TOO PASS

10. Finding similarities in success stories of other but ignoring even more similarities in failure stories. DON'T COMPARE.

The internal battle you fight in you are a lot harder than what others see you struggling in life. Others may comfort you, inspire you but you will be the one fighting your battle all by yourself. The day you started enjoying your own company uss din tum jeet jaogey. 

I know I am not able to clear the entrance this year, but next baari Riya Singh will come back as a ranker. 

Thank-you 

Signing off

Riya Singh.